anyone else still have brainrot for books they read in middle school?

[loveair]

 

i randomly decided to reread call down the hawk and mister impossible before greywaren comes out next tuesday and it works out bc i have fall break this week so thats kinda why i made the impulsive decision to reread these books lol. 

idk how many ppl have read trc or care but this series meant everything to me in middle school/hs and i still keep up w it so clearly its still close to my heart and idek why or how to explain it. maybe bc this was once of the first books i read w gay people in it along w nico in percy jackson but idk. maybe its the found family but whatever it is i loved it so much and i still do. i know most ppl who read trc are Over it but sadly im not and i dont think i’ll ever be like adam parrish is one of my fav characters of all time and i rarely talk ab him but he’s like top 3 fav characters across all media for me.

and i first read trc in like 2016 bc i vividly remember trying to find a trk epub bc i couldnt wait till the library had it to read it, and then i did a series reread in 2019 before cdth came out and thats the most recent reread ive done. which is kind of a mistake bc i read like 3 chapters of cdth last night and i wanna reread trc so bad. anyways. 

this is just me rambling for no reason so yeah just wanted to put that out there this is just me being emo. i read cdth right when it came out in 2019 and i was in my senior year of high school and now im a junior in college rereading it in preparation of the greywaren release and i just feel insane actually. reading the chapter where ronan visits cambridge to see adam who’s just starting college. damn. adam wanting a completely fresh start in college is so relatable like i did nawt get that the way i get it now. and ronan’s feelings of isolation too like hello why do i feel everything so much more viscerally now than the first time i read it ? it does not add up. 

also this reread is just really making me want to reread trc again like idk why i thought i could just reread cdth and mi and feel like i would be okay bc i fr wanna abandon cdth rn and reread from the beginning lol. 

greywaren predictions:

• declan is gonna go absolutely ballistic for some reason or the other

damn i really only had one prediction lol

anyway i finished reading greywaren lol im here to finish this post now bc im feeling insane

post-greywaren thoughts (spoilers ahead)

there was so fucking much packed in 300 pgs like it was honestly overwhelming at some points. i really liked the ending though like i will not lie i wanted more from liliana before she died and i hated the way that matthew just pulled up at the end and we didnt get any more from his pov. like. this man has been having an identity crisis all three books of this series how are we gonna pretend that just punching declan and chilling w bryde for a few days magically solved all that? i wanted more there :( 

i also felt like declan kinda overshadowed ronan in this book and i didnt even mind that very much bc im #1 declan lynch fan and idk seeing him finally realize his true feelings and seeing how all his hurt and pain and repression of emotions affected his view of reality made me so :(((( and his growth,,, the way he stopped hiding his feelings by the end of the book declan lynch i love u. and my singular prediction of declan losing his shit was right but like i was 99.8% certain that it would happen but he deserved that im happy he did what he did… my poor deklo though he truly went thru so much,,, after he got shot and while he believed matthew and ronan were dead i literally had to take breaks every 2 paragraphs it was tew much. also who tf wouldve thought niall was the good parent like ? declan truly could never win his good parent was murdered, mor left, and aurora was a fucking dream. i truly understand him the way he is.

in terms of adam and ronan,,, adam’s whole monologue of ronan being the only place he could unload reality,, yeah that kinda hurt. paired with the summer before where they knew something was gonna have to change,,, my pynch they deserve the happy ending so much. the casual ring exchange at the end too,,, mstief what do i have to do to get the pynch novella pls dont let this be the end

im worried for hennessey though. she lost all her girls except for jordan and lost liliana and carmen too,,, and we never got anything else from her,,, i feel like that part was kinda rushed bc there were so many characters in this series that mstief expanded on and gave storylines to and not having proper conclusions for all of them kinda sucks ass esp since this is The End. 

also we were robbed WHERE was the ronsey reunion. where was it. what The Fuck. i refuse to believe that the ley line shut down and neither gansey nor blue nor henry called adam or ronan to check in like ? be fucking fr theres no way gansey wasnt worried about ronan. 

overall i loved this book. i flew through it,,, and i liked the ending for most of the characters. and the writing was just so good. the descriptions of the barns always gets me bc its insane how she makes it seem alive and her description of dreamspace was really cool too. when ronan and adam found each other,, when hennessey found ronan. ronan traveling through the sweetmetals to catch glimpses of the outside world. i loved it. one thing mstief will always do is absolutely deliver good prose and imagery. i still cant believe its over like im so much more emo than i thought i would be like i go months without thinking of trc but ig it will always be dear to me. im excited at the prospect of mstief adult book but also so sad bc we could’ve gotten the sarchengsey road trip series we deserved but no she went and burned her fucking journal out of spite. anywho. this post is not ab my problems w mstief.

also im so emo over ronan’s character growth like. he <3 he is not the same person he was in trc or even in cdth when he was considering moving to boston to be w adam. and now,, he’s perfect <3 also emo over the lynch brothers finally being friends again like. god damn it took them forever. i think i will eventually do an entire reread trc + tdt and see if my ranking changes but this is it for rn:

1. the dream thieves
2. greywaren
3. the raven king
4. call down the hawk
5. the raven boys
6. blue lily, lily blue
7. mister impossible

yeah ok i think thats all i dont have more to say thats actually productive beyond me being sad that blue never said a single word in gw but whatever thats all ive got for now.

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[trepkos]

I re-read "The Great Gem of Rickensberg" recently. When I first read it, I had a major crush on the hero, and looking back I was convinced there was a horrible torture scene in which the hero is threatened with his greatest fear - spiders as it happened. Or didn't. On re-read, there was no such scene, and the character didn't appeal to me at all.